for the first time in my life....i feel totally unprepared for the exams....i can't seem to remember anything i studied...and it's a whole new format....totally alien...and i don't know what im going to do

this is the only time when i feel completely terrified...ive never felt like this before...and add maths is killing me...i mean i did the workbook in school...but when i reach home and do some other books..i can't remember how to do it without an example...maybe im relying too much on the workbook answers to do it previously...i really don't know...but there's not much time left..and im experiencing a panic attack as of now

it would be alright if the whole exam was just add maths...i can just do it all the time like a mad person..but there's so many other subjects,,and i don't feel secure about any of them...and i can't share my woes....my parents think im doing fine...all my friends just say "Aiya, don't worry lah...u r so smart, if u dunno how to do...we will be worse off"

nobody understands...I AM NOT SMART...it's all hard work that got my results...if i was smart..it wouldn't take me so damn long to understand science and maths questions....

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