THIS POST HAS A LOT OF WORDS...IM SORRY...JUST NEED TO LET OFF STEAM...IF YOU DON'T WANT TO READ...IT'S FINE

first things first....im worried....very worried....things don't seem fine nowadays....it's not like last time anymore....distance is slowly killing us....and i can't do anything about it...i feel like i don't fit in anywhere now


what else???

as i expected...i didn't get to go to the autograph session.....but it's still so damn disappointing..im so jealous...coz everyone who went managed to get their autograph...and some even managed to shake hands with them

im going crazy...i feel emotionally drained....it's like i tried so hard just to meet with failure...i racked my brains for two whole weeks thinking of how to enter the contest without having to inconvenience my parents..and i ended up inconveniencing my friends for nothing...JUE THENG AND HUI LIN...im so sorry again...do you know how depressing it feels??? i keep thinking about the wasted chance all the time

yes...i do like them.....but it's not just about them...it's the fact that i have wanted to go to a concert like since FOREVER..and now i have the chance...i actually won...it's free!!!!!...but i still don't get to go...due to overly strict parents who are unwilling to fetch me anywhere at night coz it's just TOO DANGEROUS...

and im not like most people....i don't have a favourite artist that im crazy about...i listen to the song...oh it's nice and i like it...but im not crazy about the artist....so even if they did hold a concert...i might not go..coz i only like a few songs from them...and it's not worth paying the expensive ticket price to hear a few songs

but this time it's different....these people are like my current craze...it comes and goes...when im suddenly obsessed over some celeb..i know everything about them...till i move on to the next obsession....so i know all their songs as of now....and it's FREE!!!!...I just don't know how to describe it..you might think im crazy...but that's just it....i keep feeling and thinking 'IT'S WASTED...THEY MIGHT NEVER COME AGAIN'..and i feel sad all over again

i sat at home today and yesterday and kept replaying 'IT'S HAPPENING NOW BUT IM NOT THERE' in my head...it's so torturous...and i can't share my feelings with anyone in my family...my sister is totally unsympathetic...coz she's not happy that i got free concert tickets and im not sharing with her...in the first place..she doesn't even like them that much...so why waste iT?? might as well give it to my cousin who introduced them to me..my parents are like' WHAT ARE YOUR PRIORITIES AS A STUDENT?? STUDYING,NOT GOING TO CONCERTS AT NIGHT AND JOINING A SCREAMING FANCROWD..PLUS THERE WOULD BE NO PARKING AND WE HAVE TO WAIT THERE THE WHOLE DAY FOR YOU'

so..end of story...please leave a kind word and console me if even if you think im ridiculous =(

this is nothing...just too much accumulated disappointment in one go...and i can't tell anyone....do you know how hard it is to keep feelings in for two whole weeks??

tomorrow is a new day....a new beginning...ill put everything behind me and go back to normal...i'll try to forget it.not easy to do...but I HAVE TO....i have to learn to deal with disappointment...coz it won't be the last time..and it won't be the last time that i will miss out on something i really want to do because of my parents....sigh...

GET OVER IT!!!

OMG...im so disappointed...i actually won tickets to their showcase but I COULDN'T GO!!!!

such a sad sad situation

A VERY VERY HUGE THANK YOU TO JUE THENG AND HUI LIN...im sorry i was such a pest for nothing.....especially to Jue Theng...please tell your mom not to kill me...im so sorry

oh well...apparently all the fans complained....coz the organising was sooooo lousy..security was terrible...and the ppl who bought the repackaged album didn't get priority access at all..35 people fainted....so it's probably a good thing i didn't go

BUT...i want to go to their autograph session....please please let me go....and honestly I hate screaming girl fans....why can't we meet our fave celebs with dignity without screaming our heads off...yes we like them....I LIKE THEM....but they're just people okay....im sure they're terrified of you...screaming like that

sheesh..because of ppl like that....im having second doubts....to go or not to go...and will i ever get there?

anywayz....my new favourite song




sound familiar???? this is the English version and the original...and i love it!!!

SS501 and Shinee should kiss Michaelangelo and Drew Ryan Scott's feet....almost all their songs are produced by these guys...without them....you would not be as successful as you are now...im sorry to say

back to the English speaking world =DDDD

after so much MUSIC BANK AND MNET...it's time to go back to MUCH MUSIC COUNTDOWN, UK TOP 40, BILLBOARD AND SVERIGETOPPLISTAN

ooo..i love Pixie Lott's new version of Turn It Up....makes me wanna dance

why is she so gorgeous??? i love her hair

first..my cousin's wedding...it was incredibly stiff ( Singaporean creme de la creme style)..i didn't really like it...but the food was good...oh...the chicken the fabulous chicken....there i go again...talking about food

i didn't get many pictures...majority are in my dad's camera...and no...i did not wear any makeup...didn't feel like it

my fabulous prawn

me and aunt




sis and i

cousin+me+sis

that's all im showing for now....family events are private sorry =DDDD

here are some pics of Korea..not complete..too lazy

huge cuttlefish...delicious much??

kimchi..I MADE IT myself.....so proud of my achievement



Dongdaemun in Seoul..shopping paradise...i bought so many things....plus dirt cheap Converse shoes....hahaha...yes they are real




oh yes....i watched this upcoming band called Drumcat in Korea..this is the stage..front row seats...almost....six girls who play the drums like crazy...they are fantastic...effortless ..so look out for them




imagine..my first live concert...incredibly deafening.....then there was a autograph session afterwards...but i didn't go...coz u need to buy their dvd....and they are gorgeous...except for one...ahem ahem...im sorry to say she looks like a man..(im too harsh.forgive me)

have to go for lunch now....will update more in the same post next time




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IM A LONER...THE SONG SAYS...AND I TOTALLY AGREE..I AM ONE SOMETIMES

im back from my holiday!!!!!! and my wedding!!!!

hahahaha....very lazy now...will update more details soon

going to library camp soon...whew...my holidays are so busy



OMG...im obsessed with You're Beautiful

full of music superstars....LOL...and it's supposed to be the acting world

it's highly recommended by me..a must watch if you like this kind of thing (aka romantic comedy)....gosh...i love this show...thank goodness my sister bought it =DDDD and i finally finished it...im so sad =(

Mi Nyu and Tae Kyung forever

haha..feel so gooey inside after watching this..bet you can't recognise this couple from the top poster coz they look completely different

poor Jeremi and Shin-Woo...im so sorry for you

it's cause of this show that i love this song..sung by a certain cast member =DDDD

IS IT JUST ME OR HAVE I CHANGED A LOT?????

im suddenly into Korean entertainment...and it doesn't help that i spent one whole week in Korea watching Mnet

hahaha....totally unlike me...is that good or bad??

i blame the boring Western music of now ....what happened to all of them?????

and the crap American Idol this year...i keep switching to MTV coz it was so boring..and guess what is playing on MTV at the same time?? u know the answer

i don't feel affected....in fact im happy...i can get the best of both worlds (yes stupid Hannah Montana line but there's no other word to describe it)