i realised that the loyalties of ppl around me have changed...and this makes me sad.can't we be genuine for once???

an unknown and unseen message to someone...is our friendship really important to u or what??? that i really don't know coz u don't seem to be showing it...u only have eyes for someone else...and yet i feel so guilty for not spending time with u...unfortunately u don't seem to feel the same way till u don't even bother to come see me so that u can be with her...instead u ask me to come find you...till i don't even feel like finding u coz im upset at u for being like this....we used to be so tight...and yet we are getting more and more distant...i don't blame her...she has as much right as me to be your good friend...but u??? u say u understand my situation...if u really did...you would come find me....not attend to her every whim

now im starting to be tight with other ppl...coz of u...and i feel guilty about it...i suddenly stop to wonder...why should I be when u don't seem to be affected...u have her..u even go to school just to be with her...accompany her...u always tell me

i feel so depressed and betrayed...i make every effort to not make u feel left out...i even invited u to my place although other ppl might not like it....but u don't see it...coz i repeat...u have someone else now...u started being friends with her to comfort her coz she was sad..at least that's what u told me...so now im telling u ...IM SAD NOW!!!!!!

and to that someone else...if u're reading this...i don't blame you at all...coz i know u're a righteous and kind girl...and i like you

do i regret posting this??? yes...very much so

went for dinner at pyramid towers atrium restaurant today....coz my dad had a half price coupon

now i feel stuffed like a pig...no make that hog...i ate so much that i don't dare to weigh myself...coz my motto has always been 'eat first worry later'...lol

wanna know how much of a glutton i am????

i ate 6 oysters, 7 large prawns, 4 pieces of sushi, 2 small bowls of hong kong noodles, 1 salad, 1 bowl of oxtail soup, a small plate of fried sotong, a small piece of strawberry mousse, a small piece of mocha chessecake, 1 small piece of icing sugared butter cake, 1 fruit tart and 2 bowls of ice cream....seriously whacked this time....i really am the eating machine

but still hazel and hui lin say i eat so little for lunch...really....tsk tsk tsk

why are all my posts about food????

and if u r interested...i cut my hair again...hahahaha...ahem...no comments about my new hair wanted

i am tired out...finally a dose of how the working world will be like next time....i work from 7.45 in the morning till the afternoon in the library...wrapping and recording book after book after book...after i finish one stack...a new shipment of books arrive....till i want to wring my hands in despair...when will it end???

being a librarian with a post has its perks and its really awful times...best pro is unlimited access to all the new storybooks in the library plus it looks good on my leaving school cert...but it causes me to be unable to spend valuable post-PMR time with my friends...it makes me exhausted everyday...i can't believe i missed out on glass painting because of it...oh yes...i have to go to school everyday...was scolded by the library teacher for not turning up just for one day

oh well...what can i do??? i signed up for this...and i worked so hard for this post...i won't give eveything up so easily

EUROPE MUSIC AWARDS are coming up....woohoo...i love it!!!

i know most ppl aren't interested in European music...coz Malaysia focusses almost entirely on American music...but i would really like a teeny weeny favour from my blog readers...which is virtually none...most unfortunately

if u r online and bored stiff with nothing better to do...vote for my favourite artists to win at the website ...click the link below to get there

http://ema.mtv.co.uk/vote

BEST EUROPEAN ACT----AGNES CARLSSON from Sweden...which fyi is the girl in the music video that's playing...really talented and definitely deserves to win



BEST PUSH ARTIST which literally special music---LITTLE BOOTS....her music is totally cool and in your face...for the PUSH category...she should win...compared to ppl like LA ROUX and PIXIE LOTT...i like pixie too...but she's too 'poppish' for this category



so please please help me..coz i think they really deserve to win and give their music a listen...don't let the really famous ppl sweep all the awards all the time

my granddad's here to stay!!! dunno what he's gonna do at my house...he seems so lonely and bored everytime he comes...staring outside the window all the time

reason for his stay...my grandma's gone on a Mediterannean cruise...WTH!!! i want to go with her...plz plz plz...i'll do anything...pack me in a suitcase...i don't care if i suffocate to death in the luggage compartment...at least i arrived on Spanish soil...it's worth dying for...seriously...she's going ...no i mean luxury cruising to Barcelona, Madrid, Sardinian islands, Marseille in France, some places in Italy and even Tunisia....why oh why didn't u bring me along?????

tomorrow im taking part in a futsal game....gulp...i have never played futsal before in my entire life...i just have this awful feeling that im gonna embarass myself...and get battered by my teammates for being lousy...help...what have i gotten myself into...i should never try new things without that level of confidence

monday if all goes well...we're gonna have a PARTAY in my house!!! Wii championships at my place....and i dunno if they're bringing Orphan...if they aren't we can always watch Transformers II...i have it in bluray...scratch that...pirated Bluray....wink wink....how is that even possible??? maybe throw in some popcorn..my mum's popcorn is da bomb

now im all excited thinking about it...please tell me that everyone can make it....it'll make a nice change to the mundane boring life of Post PMR...i finally can do whatever i like ....but there seems to be nothing to do....becoming mouldier everyday with boredom

toodles =)

went to summit with frenz on thursday...very fun...we played with wigs and handbags at a stall on summit's ground floor...play until the stall owner scolded us...lol...making too much noise...

got some pics...coming soon...my camera cable is still missing...sorry guys for not uploading on fb yet...my father says he will look for it when there's time....

after that we went to watch surrogates...i think this movie is kinda anticlimax...they build up until it seems so exciting...but then the ending is so crap...that everyone was like...huh...that's all when it ended...no wonder it didn't do well in the box office...ahhh...fooled by the trailer again

i went to megamall with my family on saturday...watched cloudy with a chance of meatballs...very funny movie...i feel like i was the only one laughing in the cinema..so embarassing...the show's lead character is voiced by Andy Samberg from The Lonely Island...heard of it??? lol...if u are still innocent...don't find out what that is...although it's very very very funny..don't lose ur innocence this way...i almost laughed when i knew that...

had lunch in yuzu at gardens...as usual...i ate my fave...unagi rice...and i stole my mum's sushi..lol...feel like ive been eating the whole day...went for dinner at sungai way...seriously...the restaurant where i go to serves the world's best butter prawns...not exaggerating...really

went home...movie time again..watched the proposal...in bluray version...haha...best rom com ive watched in ages...though if u think about it...sandra bullock and ryan reynolds are like demi and ashton...like fifteen years age difference....ewwwwwww...plus the movie got it upside down...sandra is the us citizen whereas ryan is the canadian...lol

and then...what else??? guess what...movie time again....watched national lampoon's van wilder...heard of it???first watched it when i was very young...brings back good memories...first show mind u...no 2 &3 are crappy...laughed my guts out all over again...though actually im not supposed to watching it...18 and above only....but who cares???

back to school on wed....urgh

ONE OF THE BEST DANCE SCENES EVER



skip the talking scene at the front to the dance if u're not interested

especially love Robert Hoffman's turn at 2.28...and of course Adam's solo...only fifteen here..so young...but his age seems to change when he does his solo...very mature

the guy at the front from 3.17 to 3.24 and 3.56 to 4.03 is Chinese...ha...who says only ang mohs can dance??

and there's this quite fat black girl at the front of the video..twice my size...but i could never move like she does...*sigh*

Briana Evigan is so pretty...plus an excellent dancer..i'm jealous

if u ever watch this movie...look out for the guy in the suit in this video...rad ballet dancer...it's so rare to see a guy dance ballet in this day and age..lol

PMR is over finally...8A'S will be mine...hopefully...lol

don't know what to blog about anymore...urgh

my mum is evil in a way..she is forcing me to call the tuition teachers for Form 4 myself...does anyone have to do that?? isn't that a parent's job??

that's why i say...evil

curse me for speaking ill of my mother...hahaha

Friday...the day of extreme stress!!!

firstly...got wakened up by wei ying calling from school telling me that the books i definitely returned for her is apparently unreturned...and she has to find the books in the library or pay up which is kinda impossible coz the bloody library is so damn big and books get lost all the time

...and my first thought was oh my god...did i really slip up...but i don't think i did...so what could i do...with a heart filled with guilt i offered to pay it for her...but she said no which made me even guiltier...what could i do...can only wait for Monday to help her find the bloody books

Lunchtime...shyh jin calls to tell me that apparently im in the same predicament...a book that i personally returned a long time ago is apparently also unreturned...WTH!!!...but thankfully she knows where the book is ...so im a tiny bit saved...but im annoyed coz this means more work and explaining to do...SCREW SMK SEAFIELD'S LIBRARY COMPUTER SYSTEM...THIS ISN'T THE FIRST TIME THIS IS HAPPENING

after that juin yi turns up with my exam results...everything is fine until i set eyes on my math paper and then OMG!!! heart attack!!! i only got 47/60 for paper 2...im partially at fault...it is extreme carelessness on my part but there's one question worth 3 marks that i can't imagine why i got wrong...and i daren't face pn wang now...since my math has kinda deteriorated for some reason unknown to me...terrified now that she'll call me out and demand an answer from me about that...whatever it is ...i must never do that again

next...more bad news..i suddenly receive an sms dated on thursday from nat telling me to come to school on friday coz of pmr stuff...and u know what's the best part..i only received it today...which is friday...the day im supposed to have gone to school...thanks to the stupid cellphone reception at my house...thinking of changing the service provider...

so i go into immediate panic mode...OMG...did i miss anything important??? call this person and that person but no one picks up until i call juin yi...she says they checked the Pmr subject list today and received the exam slip...oh shit...hopefully mine does not have any errors...im not that unlucky right???apparently im the only person who didn't go to school because of the late information...

and i missed the Chinese ceramah as well....darn

and now i sit back and reflect...i wish i had went to school on friday...then there wouldn't be this many problems...what can i do...what's done is done...there is no turning back the clock

so tell me now...aren't i an unlucky person??