i hate ppl telling me that im smart..that i don't have anything to worry about during exams..that's not true...not one bit...i am terrified of exams...and my good results are not because of smartness...its due to lots and lots of hard work

everyone says i have nothing to fear...i can't even complain to anyone that im scared of any exam...coz they will just say u are so smart...why are u so worried?? if u get awful marks...we will get worse..nobody understands at all...i can't tell anybody anything at all about my woes about exams

and because of this..i am always under pressure to live up to everyone's expectations..including my insulting family on my dad's side who's tongues will wag if i fail...always stressing myself out over nothing..why am i so stupid..and what did i ever do wrong to be born the stupid and slow one in a crazy smart family on both sides???

well...this time round..im proving all of u wrong...i am getting worse marks than everyone else..a horrible average...and i will not cry...i will not show my sadness...don't you dare gloat at me now...coz a tiny bit of my pain is caused by your influence